It’s less than a week until I reach the big 40 and to say that I am contemplating my life is an understatement.
When I was younger I had no idea where I would be at this age. Most women desire to be married and have children by this stage. I never had that desire. I got married and it wasn’t right for me. I will never regret that but now as I move into a brand new decade, I am wondering what is next.
For the last year and a half I have spent the majority of my time in Spanish speaking countries. Completely out of my comfort zone for someone who has never been very good at languages. In 2 days time I leave the city that I love and one that has been my home for a year, and I am so unsure of my next move.
Can you still travel solo in your forties when you’ve been doing it on and off for seventeen years? Is this still for me?
Over the past year I have changed considerably. I’m not saying that I have been there and done it all because new countries never fail to surprise me. My love for new nightlife in each country has slowly been replaced by beautiful architecture, culture and even classical music. Have I finally grown up? I hope so.
As I have been looking back over my photographs the past few days, I realise that I have had an amazing life. If I don’t make it a day past forty, I have definitely achieved more than many in my forty years but life isn’t about comparing yourself to others. It’s about living the life true to you.
I have spent the last few years of my life living my dreams instead of living my fears. Pushing boundaries and challenging myself. It has now been 20 months since I left England. Have I changed? I hope so.
Each decade brings new questions about what you want, your purpose in life and what more you want to achieve. Many of us just drift through life not questioning anything or challenging ourselves.
As Tony Robbins says “whatever you want, do it now. There are only so many tomorrows.”
What are you putting off today?
Write a list of everything you still want to achieve whether it’s visiting a country solo, striving for the next qualification or spending more time with your loved ones.
Take that step no matter how small. One thing I have learned in life is that the older you get, the faster the years go by. Take that risk and step on your fears. Life is for living not for doing. After all we are human beings not “human doings.”
There is always more to achieve.
I am so thankful for the last 40 years and with many deep breaths I look forward to the next 40 and completely trust that it will all unfold just as the last 40 have.
Here’s to a brand new decade and I am sure many more adventures on this roller-coaster that we call life.